yes .... it's been forever. I always seem to start my blogs off this way ... I just am either too busy or tired to ... but no excuses . let's just say A LOT has changed!
well, biggest change of all .... moving out . if you know me, and my family ... then you'd see what a huge step this is for me. and while it took me sometime to reach my decision, going through much deliberation as well as searching for guidance and acceptance from family and loved ones, I ultimately made THE step.
at first it was kinda weird, of course. like okay this isn't just a sleepover , it's permanent. I LIVE here; home . it's different but, in a good way . people's first thoughts are always that I'm gonna party and go crazy. and many had doubts of me being able to handle the responsibility. I won't lie, I'm really struggling. this is all so new to me, and I'm really trying. I know transitions such as this one takes a lot of time, it's not an overnight thing. But as much support & help friends and family offer I honestly feel very alone. It's not 100% bad, I mean I have to learn to be independent , and handle things on my own . it's only been a few weeks and I have had a lot of difficulty. but one thing is for sure, I'm not giving up on this. I have to give it a fair shot, and believe in myself enough to realize it is time to start a new chapter . I not only have to learn responsibility as I grow with age, but I also need my space to grow as a person . I must experience things & live my life . not stay still while time continues to pass me by. time waits for no one... and I really need to start doing things for me . it's a big time in my life for me right now . I'm just trying to stay motivated as best I can .. and embrace this change instead of feeling entirely overwhelmed and scared . there is good to this, I just haven't made the best of it yet. But it's just the beginning...
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